It’s been a long time since I’ve updated this blog, and to be honest I’m not really sure how long I’ll continue to even keep it running. But for the time being, I’m going to start posting a bit more frequently to track how I deal with some profound changes in and around my life.

So it’s the mid-point of 2020, and anyone alive right now knows this year has been a conflagration of confusion. COVID running rampant worldwide, an economy in the dumpster, and a global awakening of racial inequality. We’re dealing with a lot of shit.

Personally, the COVID crisis has hit two aspects of my life. First, my return to triathlon racing is basically a non-starter as all my races have either been postponed indefinitely or cancelled outright.

Second, I’ve been permanently laid off from my job.

In the first case, I’m ok with the cancellations as I understand the reasons to be safe for all the athletes spectators and volunteers. I just don’t see any way Eagleman or IMLP could go on with all the social distancing and safety procedures and be the same event. I think of all the lines we stand it, the close quarters at the start, the crowding around aid stations and the outpouring of bodily fluids that occur during the race and in transition and it’s just not a safe place in the times of COVID.

So I’ll continue to train in some fashion, look for opportunities to push myself where I can, and build strength and endurance for 2021.

As for the job loss, I’m not really sure what that means yet. I’m still processing the event, as it just happened on Monday. I had planned to take Thurs & Fri off this week anyway, and next week the firm is closed for summer break, so I was already mentally ‘checked out’ until after Independence Day. To be honest, getting the word that I was cut was a bit of a relief. The firm’s outsourcing program had been going on for close to two years and I knew that there was going to be some impact. Despite reassurances that our group was safe, we still got hit, as did almost 1/3 of the IT staff. So the level of anxiety about the actual lay-off is finally behind me.

Now I can deal with the anxiety of what’s next. I’m processing a lot of different thoughts about what I want to do in this next phase, both short term and long term. I’m extremely fortunate that I have some financial flexibility right now and I don’t have to jump to the first offer that may come across the plate. But I’m in no position to retire yet.

So I’m going to take this next week, knock a whole bunch of to-dos of the list and enjoy what looks like a great summer week.